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Live blog update| Israel's war on Gaza

'I don't want to die, mum'

"My family has grown accustomed to the monotony of survival. We have been repeatedly displaced by Israel's relentless assault on Gaza, which has continued for more than eight months. 

"The constant evacuations, cramped living conditions and scarcity of basic necessities have taken a toll. The passage of time seems to have become warped and distorted. The exhaustion, fear and desperation have blended together into a numb, relentless haze.

"Every day is a struggle. Our lives are devoid of joy or happiness, stuck in a never-ending routine. My siblings ask questions that break my heart, reminding me of all the things we've lost and can't get back.

"When things get really tough, I try to pretend everything will be okay, even though I'm not sure it's true. This war is terrifying. The Israeli army is destroying Gaza, and it's hard to know what will happen next.

"My bed at home in al-Maghazi camp in central Gaza was soft and comfortable; it made me feel safe. A few months ago, after my family was displaced to Rafah, I was forced to sleep on hard ground that hurt my body whenever I moved."

READ MORE: 'I don't want to die, mum', a recounting of the Nuseirat massacre by Eman Alhaj Ali

Palestinians walk through smoke and dust after an Israeli attack on Gaza’s Nuseirat refugee camp on 8 June 2024 (Bashar Taleb/AFP)
Palestinians walk through smoke and dust after an Israeli attack on Gaza’s Nuseirat refugee camp on 8 June 2024 (Bashar Taleb/AFP)